Omg it’s almost 4 AM

I’m obsessed with these 2. I spend sleepless nights staring at them and how much they mean to me.

Obsessed i tell ya.


[AD] Online Shopping with BerryLook

I’ve been on lockdown for the last 2 months and let me tell you- I’ve been through all the emotions.

I recently decided to declutter my closet and once the ECQ has been liften, I plan on selling them and instantly replacing them with these cheap clothes online that I’ve been eyeing for the last few weeks.

Honestly, online shopping has definitely kept my thoughts at bay. It’s helped me cope and look forward to all the places I can’t wait to wear these pieces at!

Aside from the cheap dresses online, I’ve also been looking for a lot of other stuff such as shoes!

I think these pieces are super cute and stylish and I can’t wait to see if they will go great with my existing pieces.

Moreover, I’d really like to see if the quality is good or not. So I guess we’ll just have to see!

Check out their website for more amazing looks!


Places I Can’t Wait To Eat At

Fast food – MCDO and JOLLIBEE

Chicken – Chosun & KFC

Pizza- Yellow Cab

Japanese Food – Yakimix or Vikings (wherever there’s unli salmon & tempura, honestly) or Hanya

KBBQ – Premiere KBBQ

JBBQ – Tajimaya

Sugbo Mercado – Nikumaki

Siomai sa Tisa

Uncategorized (I don’t care where as long as I get to eat it)

will update

i aint’t shit

i’ve been feeling like absolute shit lately. i don’t even know what i’ve been running on anymore.

i’m unhappy. i’m uninspired. but i keep acting like i’ve got it all together. for who? i don’t need to fucking impress anyone at this point. i don’t have kids i need to pretend to be strong for. my husband doesn’t need me to be strong.

if i wanted to cry on the fucking bathroom floor, i could.

so here i am. lying in bed. just crying  my eyes out feeling like i’m never gonna be the person i need to be.

feeling like i’m a constant disappointment and like i ain’t shit.

it’s nice actually.

to be able to admit that to myself.

Waist Training with FeelinGirl

Ever since my first feature with FeelinGirl, I’ve been growing more and more curios about waist trainer for women. For some reason, every time I think of them- I imagine Kim Kardashian. I’ve been doing my research on them (still) and while I’m not completely sold on the thought of using a waist trainer just yet, if I did ever consider using one, I’d definitely choose this one.

I’ve always been a fan of teal and so scrolling through their selection, this one definitely caught my eye.

So since I’m not completely convinced on getting waist trainers, I decided to take a look at their shapewear shorts instead. I was pretty impressed with the options that they offered because they all looked like they were made with great quality.

I’ve definitely found myself in shapewear before and I appreciate how they give me that extra boost of confidence. While I do urge all of us to eventually have the confidence to strut our bodies without a shaper- I respect women who finding themselves more comfortable in one. And so, I’m sharing this interesting piece with all of you!

I’m pretty interested in the best waist trainer from FeelinGirl because the pieces they offer all look so great!

What do you ladies think about waist trainers & body shapers? Would you suggest them? Would you encourage them? Let me know how you feel!

Cheap Dresses with Callabuy

I’ve been on the lookout lately for cheap clothes for women. While online shopping isn’t really an option for me to take advantage of right now, I can only assume how the economy will be after we make it out of this. Having said that, I still want to be able to wear cute clothes but definitely pieces that don’t break bank but still allow me to look cute and fashionable.

Thus, my obsessive online shopping lately.

I’ve been looking a lot at fashion dresses especially those that would look good in my Bayhana videos. I just think it would be so cute to go out again in cute, sophisticated dresses like the ones that I’ve picked out today.

Luckily Callabuy has a pretty good selection of pieces to choose from, depending on your style. I wish they were a little younger, if I’m being completely honest but if it’s practical outfits- this is definitely the place you should be checking out!

Check Callabuy out noow!

Shop smart!


Online Shopping with

With the current lockdown I’m left here, day in and day out on my laptop. Hours on end of nonstop scrolling. I’ve kind of run out of things to do that I’ve ended up searching for cute clothing even if there’s not really anywhere to go nowadays. In a way, it’s been therapeutic because I look at the clothes and imagine myself wearing them somewhere, someday and it gives me a sense of hope which is something I’ve been needing a lot of lately.

It’s a bit odd to be looking for tops online, especially at a time like this but I can’t deny that these pieces are still really cute and i would love to be able to own these pieces one day. Either that or just being able to look at them has brought me immense joy.

Ninacloak has a lot of interesting pieces. I have my eye on a couple pieces, especially the ones that I highlighted in this post. While I do find some of their pieces a bit dated, they’re still great for a sunny summer day or a casual day out and I still think anyone can pull these pieces off.

Check them out at!

Life has been so hard lately. Everyone in the entire world is suffering and I’m stuck at home, not really able to do anything. I’m not saying I haven’t tried- because I have. I try to be a mix of everything I can be, given my “influence”.

I am trying to set a “good example”, “provide relief”, “give an educated distraction” and “reach out from my home”. All of this because I don’t have much to offer. I only have my voice and my platform.

We have staff to worry about. Bills to pay, debts that won’t be put on hold despite all of this. I saw the worry in my husband’s eyes and for someone who generally keeps it together, i heard him say- haay, nag rigor gyud akong ulo. How can I make this work? And I wished I had more to offer than just a hug. He apologized this morning for us potentially having to move in with his parents and i asked him why he was sorry. I sunk in my seat because i saw the weight I had put on him more than ever. I felt so bad.

I worry about everyone. The people who depend on us, the people I am able to influence, my family, the people I don’t know, the people I want to help but cannot or I haven’t figured out how to help yet.

I don’t think I’m a bad person. I know in my heart I am not selfish, I never pretend to be someone I am not. I think logically, reason logically and am unbiased. I may not be perfect but I never use my imperfection as an excuse. I own up to my own shit. In fact, I get bullied because of it. And how come the ONE TIME I defend myself I am the villain?