i love my witt

ershadtaung: miss yah bunso
issadog_102890: it’s not like we’re even that close for you to miss me
issadog_102890: but i understand, i have that effect on people

I’M TRYING TO COOK TONIGHT. WISH ME LUCK!

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Traditions <3

Christmas traditions:
– Christmas eve-
1. Have family dinner
2. Go to church at the chapel just to see all the neighbors because that’s really one of the ONLY times you get to see them
3. Have goofy programs where the kids sing and dance
4. Open gifts
5. Picture taking
6. Play with gifts while the oldies drink their wine and eat
7. Open gifts from parents ONLY

-Christmas morning-
1. Wake up to open gifts from Santa
2. Get ready to go to the mall to return/ exchange the gifts my PAPA doesn’t like
3. Spend time with cousins 🙂

New year traditons:
– A Day Before (30th)-
1. Go to Mactan and buy fireworks

-New Years Eve-
1. Spend the whole day preparing
2. Go to church at the chapel again
3. Watch the neighbors use OUR fireworks because papa won’t let us play with fireworks 😦
4. Eat [3 and 4 are interchangeable or may happen simultaneously]
5. At 12 we basically cry. hahahaha
6. Then we drink up!!
7. I stay up til 8 in the morning blogging. basically summing up the whole year that’s passed 🙂

What are your traditions?

Things I Am Not Sorry For…

if there’s one thing i hate, it’s when someone thinks that they’re better than me. Or maybe it’s not that because i am open to the fact that i am not the best at everything, i think i hate it the most when people ACT like their better than me and treat me like i am someone below them. I also hate it when people belittle me and take me for granted.

Well anyways, i got into a fight yesterday with one of my best friends because that’s how she was treating me. She would make stupid insults about me in front of everyone else and it just made me super pissed because it really did feel like i was being attacked. I can take a joke- what am i, 5? but i can’t take a joke when it’s insulting and way out of line. Pretty reasonable, i guess right?

And i’m a lot of things that i’m not afraid to admit. I’m frank, i’m tackless, sometimes i’m cocky [when the need arises] and i’m a bitch. And i’m all these things to people who provoke me to be. I’m not just going to sit around in the corner and blog about my feelings. If i’m mad at you, you’ll know it. If you’re asking for it, you’ll pretty much get what you want. And i’m like that because i have issues. I do NOT like it when people think they can just push me around. So i have to remind them. And i am NOT sorry for that. No matter who you are.

The attack:
*: i don’t wanna go with you to buy drinks if ISSA’S there…
Me: -silence- [ i was trying so hard not to cause a fight because my friends told me not to]

But i couldn’t help it…
*: Oh, i’m drinking whatever you’re drinking
Me: No, we’ll just buy you beer cuz that’s all the only thing you can handle. One can of that are you’re good.

The attack:
*: Issa doesn’t know anything! Go with her!
me: wtf…..

and then when i couldn’t help it anymore i shouted at her, slammed the bathroom door, shouted at her some more and almost started insulting her. i just tried not to cuz she IS my best friend. and i still love her. i wish i caught that on video. one of my finest moments, really.

so yeah, i’m not sorry. i never will be. she deserved it anyways.

what do i do with boys like you?

with you, it’s a lot like dancing. you take one step forward and one step back. One more step forward and you suddenly leave me in the middle of the dance floor. And just when i’ve decided not to dance this dance, you show up again and very easily sweep me into your tango -issa

i honestly feel bad. i feel bad because i didn’t stay long enough to hear it from jeed’s side of the story. i feel like i was in a hurry to replace him [but it was unintentional] and i feel like i’m letting him get close enough to hurt me and i do NOT want that to happen. I haven’t heard from him in more than a week but he calls me up tonight saying he wants to meet up and i’m immediately in a cab on my way to meet him. and it didn’t matter what he did- i just felt like i wanted to be with him. ehh, i sound so in love with him which i’m not. i just don’t understand why i’m like this. i think it’s cuz i needed an explanation from him badly. and now i have it and i am NOT happy. because of me.:(

so i saw his phone. it was really with his friend. he’s using it now cuz he broke his original phone. turns out, it wasn’t pawned and his friends were bullshitting. last saturday, he wasn’t with carlyle [the guy who supposedly pushed him to use] and he was home. with his brother and he’s been home since cuz he’s been trying to save up for a new phone. he kept telling me that he’s been staying away from our common friends cuz they’re the one who push him into using and he really doesn’t want to. but you know if he wanted to text me, he would’ve found ways right? UGH UGH STUPID INCONSISTENT BOY!

and then jericho, i love talking to him, i love texting him. he is soo different. he’s consistent, he’s there. he feels like something different. but i think about jeed and i feel like he needs me more. i feel like i’m rushing into something else but i’m not. jericho just happened and i’m just trying to see what can actually happen. i know i’m not playing thee two boys cuz… jericho proli doesn’t like me like that [not that i do either] and jeed, well, his side has been established once or twice but why do i feel wrong about this?

jeed man gud!! sos, so inconsistent. and i don’t like waiting around for boys because it makes me feel used.

i hate my life. i feel like a whore

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT BOY DRAMA IS LIKE IN MY WORLD?!?!


first and foremost, i love this picture. i look high on life.

my boyfriend!

if i were you,i would ask! haha
 

i have boy drama. amazingly so. ALL IN 24 HOURS.

boy 1: JEED [i’ll start with him because he is recent and because i thought i had something with this mo fo]
ok so i thought i liked jeed. i’ve had a crush on him for a while already and i found him super cute and fun to hang out with. [he’s the one in green from last saturdays pictures] then this week, he doesn’t text me at all! so i’m like… ok whatever. no big deal. but yesterday he calls me up and says he pawned his phone cuz his friend needed it. and he has the nerve pa to get mad at me for hanging out with guys! but hello, i’m always around other guys! that’s just how it is. i AM one of the guys and he knows that. so we argue a little and blah2x.

tonight my phone keeps ringing and all his friends are asking ME where he is. the hell i know!!! the real story is, he sold his phone to buy weed. there.
I loathe him. and he promised he wouldn’t. not like i even believed it. but god, the nerve.

boy 2: STUPID GUY AT C24
so i’m at the bathroom of this convenience store right? i’m trying to unclog the sink because i clogged it with my puke [hehe] and this OLD FART comes up to me and says… “can i get your number?” and seeing as to how old he is and i don’t give out my number, i said no. politely. and he asks why, so i tell him why. i say, because you’re too old for me! and he says he’s 25. i say, “yeah, you wish.” and then he starts getting pushy and asks for my number. but i’m persistent when i say no and then this asshole suddenly says… “SO WHAT, I MAY BE OLD BUT I OWN 200,000 A MONTH!” and i got sooo annoyed and said, “THE HELL I CARE. THAT’S NOT EVEN HALF OF WHAT WE MAKE!” ugggh. i know that was soo bad like to even stoop down to his level but he was asking for it. and i was drunk. not an excuse 😐

boy 3: JERICHO 🙂
i mey him at the club last night, we danced, he got my nmber from his friend and now we’re texting. we go to the same school and he’s tagalog. he and my papa have the same province and he’s… cute. haha. nuff said.

boy 4: Rex
so rex aka eduard cullen. this guy who dressed up as a VAMPIRE during our 3 way party, texts me today and asks me out to a christmas day party. i said no because i don’t juggle guys. even if i’m not really seeing anyone right now. he’s also too old for me. and scary. he bit my neck during my party. 😐

boy 5: ADRIAN LUA. as if you thought he was gone.
this boy chats with me again and starts his BASA MOVES. i just make small talk because i know he’s like that a lot. he likes to play with my emotions like that. so annoying.

but i’m only texting jericho now. a lot of fun to talk to, actually. not as fun as MATT though! wink wink

and i’m still pissed about jeed.

AND THEY KILLED BLAZE, MIGUELS CHICKEN. COULDNT EAT HIM. JUST COULDN’T

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT BOY DRAMA IS LIKE IN MY WORLD?!?!


first and foremost, i love this picture. i look high on life.

my boyfriend!

if i were you,i would ask! haha
 

i have boy drama. amazingly so. ALL IN 24 HOURS.

boy 1: JEED [i’ll start with him because he is recent and because i thought i had something with this mo fo]
ok so i thought i liked jeed. i’ve had a crush on him for a while already and i found him super cute and fun to hang out with. [he’s the one in green from last saturdays pictures] then this week, he doesn’t text me at all! so i’m like… ok whatever. no big deal. but yesterday he calls me up and says he pawned his phone cuz his friend needed it. and he has the nerve pa to get mad at me for hanging out with guys! but hello, i’m always around other guys! that’s just how it is. i AM one of the guys and he knows that. so we argue a little and blah2x.

tonight my phone keeps ringing and all his friends are asking ME where he is. the hell i know!!! the real story is, he sold his phone to buy weed. there.
I loathe him. and he promised he wouldn’t. not like i even believed it. but god, the nerve.

boy 2: STUPID GUY AT C24
so i’m at the bathroom of this convenience store right? i’m trying to unclog the sink because i clogged it with my puke [hehe] and this OLD FART comes up to me and says… “can i get your number?” and seeing as to how old he is and i don’t give out my number, i said no. politely. and he asks why, so i tell him why. i say, because you’re too old for me! and he says he’s 25. i say, “yeah, you wish.” and then he starts getting pushy and asks for my number. but i’m persistent when i say no and then this asshole suddenly says… “SO WHAT, I MAY BE OLD BUT I OWN 200,000 A MONTH!” and i got sooo annoyed and said, “THE HELL I CARE. THAT’S NOT EVEN HALF OF WHAT WE MAKE!” ugggh. i know that was soo bad like to even stoop down to his level but he was asking for it. and i was drunk. not an excuse 😐

boy 3: JERICHO 🙂
i mey him at the club last night, we danced, he got my nmber from his friend and now we’re texting. we go to the same school and he’s tagalog. he and my papa have the same province and he’s… cute. haha. nuff said.

boy 4: Rex
so rex aka eduard cullen. this guy who dressed up as a VAMPIRE during our 3 way party, texts me today and asks me out to a christmas day party. i said no because i don’t juggle guys. even if i’m not really seeing anyone right now. he’s also too old for me. and scary. he bit my neck during my party. 😐

boy 5: ADRIAN LUA. as if you thought he was gone.
this boy chats with me again and starts his BASA MOVES. i just make small talk because i know he’s like that a lot. he likes to play with my emotions like that. so annoying.

but i’m only texting jericho now. a lot of fun to talk to, actually. not as fun as MATT though! wink wink

and i’m still pissed about jeed.

AND THEY KILLED BLAZE, MIGUELS CHICKEN. COULDNT EAT HIM. JUST COULDN’T