Poor Me

Do you ever feel like your head is always somewhere else??

I always find myself saying over and over again in my head that my dreams are somewhere far far away.

And it sucks.

I never know what I want.

MY FACEBOOK GOT HACKED!!!

Now, I have no idea why anyone would even do this to me. I don’t have any enemies but I guess it was all luck.

I always thought I had reached the prime of my “career’ the day someone made a fake account of me. But maybe I’m already at it. LOL. jk.

Seriously though, someone thought it would be funny to change my email address from issplease to isa_isa101. Pssh, yeah right. Like i would ever make an email address like THAT. *eye roll*

But really, whoever did that…not cool. You’ve actually cause me sooo much hassle. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO MY SCHOOL WORK NOW, you jerk!

It’s been a while

I haven’t been able to be on as much as i would’ve wanted to and i greatly apologize. Lately i’ve been busy with my tumblr account and it’s been good. but my loyalty will always be wit you, Xanga 🙂

 

My life has pretty much been a blast not to mention me and paolo will be celebrating our anniversary next month.

I’m a very lucky girl ❤

Day 05

A lot of times. I cut, alot.

Most of the time, i only cut to somehow redirect all the overwhelming emotions I feel but yk, there are days when I just feel like “one day, I’m gonna have it in me to dig it a little big deeper and end all of this.”

That doesn’t happen that often anymore. I t used to when Alvin used to be in the picture. But I’ve happily burned that bridge.

:]

Day 3

My views on drugs and alcohol

Wow. Ok.

Let me start with alcohol. I’ve been drinking since I was in the 6th grade. During that time, I would buy a can of cali and drink it with a box of matches to give me a feel of drinking and smoking. All because I’m weird, yes. I grew up surrounded by it and I always remember a can of beer laying around the house somewhere cuz of my dead beat of a father. I don’t think that I was influenced by it though but I discovered it on my own. I never saw my mom drunk and she never encouraged me to do it either. But once I started drinking, she never really had any complaints for as long as I knew my own limitations.

At some point in my life, it did become a big issue though. I was so depressed it would come to a point where I would be drinking by myself or even busting all of my money just to drink. Let me tell you, those were sad times. It became my escape and I look back now and remember all the stupid things I did and I really do wish I thought a lot harder before..

But I’ve never done drugs. I’ve considered it on more than one occasion. I’ve been around people who use it, a lot of people I love are addicted to it. But not me. Maybe never if i’m lucky.

Probably never because I’m a coward.

Day 3

My views on drugs and alcohol

Wow. Ok.

Let me start with alcohol. I’ve been drinking since I was in the 6th grade. During that time, I would buy a can of cali and drink it with a box of matches to give me a feel of drinking and smoking. All because I’m weird, yes. I grew up surrounded by it and I always remember a can of beer laying around the house somewhere cuz of my dead beat of a father. I don’t think that I was influenced by it though but I discovered it on my own. I never saw my mom drunk and she never encouraged me to do it either. But once I started drinking, she never really had any complaints for as long as I knew my own limitations.

At some point in my life, it did become a big issue though. I was so depressed it would come to a point where I would be drinking by myself or even busting all of my money just to drink. Let me tell you, those were sad times. It became my escape and I look back now and remember all the stupid things I did and I really do wish I thought a lot harder before..

But I’ve never done drugs. I’ve considered it on more than one occasion. I’ve been around people who use it, a lot of people I love are addicted to it. But not me. Maybe never if i’m lucky.

Probably never because I’m a coward.

Day 2

In ten years from now I would want to either be here, in the Philippines or anywhere outside of the Philippines.

But I know that wasn’t a literal question.

I would have to say that it ultimately depends on what I’m doing during that time. And as of today, I’m still unsure of what I want to do or who I want to be. As much as possible, I would want to stay away from the medical field and have a profession in fashion but you know… ten years?

I definitely want to have children by that time for sure.