All This Chaos

Hello much under appreciated blog of mine, it’s been a long 2 months and many missed entries since- you have been missed.

I’ve been trying to read through you since my first entry on December 29 (or something), 2005 and doing that made me cringe, laugh but mostly face palm myself because oh my god, I am a horrible person. And I’ve noticed that I love to talk about love a lot which I find quite odd because… well, I never took myself for someone who liked to talk about love a lot. *new discoveries. wow*

As of the moment my life has been going through some major reconstructive surgery and I constantly find myself lost, tired and broken. But I look forward to the day that I conquer all these challenges so ’til then, I am looking up. It gets especially hard when you have no one to confide all these things with and your only means of sanity (which is you) has been taken away. I must invest on a pocket wifi. -.-

So here is my life in a nutshell.

April – graduated

May – June – worked for our company

June – quit my job and applied for Accenture where I am currently employed in.

moved out of the house

July – Present times – I am basically on my own now. Taxes, bills, rent, food and everything. I don’t like going home early because my room is extremely small and I have nothing there to distract me. I hate Sundays because I got into a fight with my family and I usually see them on Sundays but not anymore and I miss them terribly. I am currently pressured to take my board exams which I really don’t want to. I know this is stupid but that’s just how I feel but I am trying very hardly to feel differently.

My job is fine. It’s not as challenging as I wished it would be but they say that that changes in the next few months so I’m not going to complain.

I had to leave the house early today instead of just wanting to be lazy the whole day because my granny was going to visit my lola and we haven’t talked in 3 years and I just didn’t want to put myself in that situation.

I wish I could update you more but I feel an attack coming and I’m getting dizy and nauseated at the same time so I’ll… update you some other time.

with love,

Issa

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