This is Paolo on a Monday night. He is currently building me a “frame light” because ring lights are too big & bulky. I also really need this for doing make up at night and he’s a doll for setting this up for me.

I love him so much. Thank you for being handy.

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The Dust Has Officially Settled

Without a doubt, the number question people will ask you after you get married is- so, how’s married life?

It was cute at first- you’re on a wedding high and everything is great- but after a while, especially when nothing in your life has changed, it gets annoying… and then it starts to get depressing.

Honestly, I suck at being a wife and I also feel like I can’t catch a break.

I feel like nothing I’ve been doing lately has been working out for me. The business is blah, all my friends are either not in Cebu; are busy with their kids or are busy, I can’t get a part time job, my clients haven’t paid me- I’m essentially broke, I’ve been having killer anxiety and stomach flus and it’s sort of making me resent the universe.

I just… wish I was in a better place, yk? mentally, financially, emotionally.

I wish I was more sure of myself.

And I also fucking wish my grandmother would stop bragging about who I married because it really makes me feel like I equate to nothing.

7 Days Later

A week ago Paolo & I got married. I woke up early (FIRST!), we actually managed to fill up a church and show up on time, we said our I do’s to each other & to God and we spent the rest of the night partying it up with (almost) everyone we love. It was pretty amazing.

Everyone is now asking me what being married feels like and while I joke and say that nothing much has changed, everything has changed.

I am now a wife. And not just anyone’s wife, Paolo’s wife. I am my best friends’ wife. Do you know how amazing that feels like? For one, we’re not “hiding” the fact that we live together and our union has been blessed by God, our friends and family. It’s special. It sounds silly to me that a ceremony changed all that but that’s just how it feels.

The dust has barely settled. I’m still swamped in photos and congratulations’, I barely have time to go to through photos, I have to go back to work, my secretary is leaving me in exactly a week and I still don’t have a replacement for her, family is still over, the house is a mess but I’m still on a chaotic; euphoric high.

In a couple of weeks, our life will return to normal and we’ll be entering the “real” married life- whatever that’s like. Honestly, I’m excited for our lives to actually start. I’m ready for the highs, the lows, the normal-ness of it all. I’m ready to spend the rest of my life with Paolo, as I always have been, it’s just crazy that this moment is finally here.

And so to my husband of 7 days exactly, this entire week has been a dream. A dream come true. Thank you for buying me kitchenware and for allowing me to spend time with my family and friends, for waking up every morning and calling me your wife with a smile on your face as if it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to you. Thank you for waiting up for me and for giving me the peace I never thought I could ever have and for choosing to spend the rest of your life with me. Thank you for you for you.

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xx,
Mrs. Jean Louise I. Perez- Gandionco

Ms.- Mrs.

In 7 days, I will officially be a wife. No longer a bride but a wife to the man I have pledged to spend the rest of my life with. It seems like the easiest thing in the world to do/ be.

It’s been a hectic couple of weeks what with the last minute preparations, non stop celebrations and most of all, people flying in. I have to say, I am the MOST touched and humbled at the amount of people who have actually taken the time to fly in and witness Paolo & I get married.

Quite honestly, I don’t have a million friends but it is soo nice to know that the little friends that I do have have gone above and beyond to be with us on one of the most important days of our lives. It’s just so freakin’ surreal!

Papa and Miguel are finally home and it feels great to finally be a complete family again. There’s nothing like the sound of our laughter filling up a room and bonding with one another.

I am also blogging on the brand new MacBook Air that they got me (and Paolo) as a wedding gift. It’s really for me but Paolo is allowed to touch it.

I keep getting asked if I’m excited to get married or what it feels like to be almost wed. Honestly, things feel the same but the air is different. Everything is a little bit brighter and the people are lighter and you’re obviously constantly the centre of attention but between Paolo and I- it doesn’t really feel like things are really going to change. I’m ok with that. I mean, I don’t necessarily want them to unless if we finally decide to have kids.

I still have to finish my vows and all the other stuff I need to do for the wedding.

Good luck, Issa.

Weeks & Days

This week we celebrated our last monthsary as boyfriend and girlfriend

In about a month from now, we’ll be married

Today we will be sending out our invitations

Tomorrow we’ll be fitting your suit

In 20 days our friends and family will be home to celebrate with us

In 28 days all this chaos will be over

But it will still be you and me

Forever

And that’s all I’ve ever prayed for

My Amazing Sinulog Experience

My last few weeks and days have been absolutely dreamy. Of course, not everything was great, but I’m really glad that I got this experience anyways.

I wanted to share these photos with you because these are big things, my friend. Big, big things!

My eyebrows are super freakin’ itchy right now but I will sleep well tonight and wake up better in the morning. ♥️

Sleep tight!

It’s the eve of new year. Happy birthday to us! You are perhaps the longest commitment I’ve been able to keep and it has always been more than worth it.

I know it’s weird to love a digital object but I really do love you and I don’t know what my life would have been like if it weren’t for you.

Thank you for saving me so many times, for changing my life, for being the most tangible thing in my life.

Thank you for allowing me to have the best life simply by using my words and sharing my thoughts and just being the many versions of me, as we’ve witnessed over the years.

I know we don’t talk as much but I try and I’ll try harder especially in these times where I need to tell you so many things, the most things I’ve ever had to say, in fact.

Happy New Year, Happy Birthday and I love you! ❤

Do Not Blog & Drive

I haven’t had coffee the entire day and I am just realizing that this is the one thing missing from my life.

There is chicken and liempo in the car and I am just dying to rip apart this paper bag and eat everything with my bare hands. Traffic is fo shore going to be the death of me.

I just wanna be home, sitting on the couch and watching fish videos with my Paolobear.

I don’t think you guys realize how dependent I am. 😂

Happy to say I’m not completely horrible at cooking and that One day I’ll actually be able to feed a family anything other than take out

I’m Back

It’s been a weird couple of months having fully been submersed in H&S business. I’m still adjusting to running a business and not wanting to let anyone, yet alone myself, down but at the same time- I can’t help but miss the things I often have to sacrifice. It’s embarrassing to admit that I’m talking about creating content but God I love it so much- even writing here is exhilarating!

I think more than anything, I just like having a physical outlet for my thoughts.

More than that, I’ve been extremely passionate about creating content that will help educate the general public. I don’t know if it will ever pick up or if anyone really likes it but if I’ve stuck by doing all the stupid shit I do online, why should something I truly believe in be any different, right?

There’s a lot of superficialities going on in what i used to consider “my space” right now and I hate it. Maybe because I’m getting older and I could care less about disbanding of gangs , what’s inside people’s bags and what they put on their face. I’m not for everybody and it’s tough. Sometimes I wish for a little bit more payoff from the work I’ve put in but I try to remind myself that I don’t really work THAT hard. 😂 not for the vlog and blog, at least. Let’s be honest. But I’ll try harder.

Maybe that’s why I’ve been in a “rut” lately because I’m not creating content and I can’t create because I’m in a rut and I refuse to try harder. It’s all so confusing right now.

Side note: we still have a wedding to plan and less than 6 months to plan it.

Holy fucking shit. And I still can’t decide on our invitations.

Ok. Now I’m starting to worry 😂

Bye content, I gotta get married first!