Barbie Dog

Your eyes, that annoying way you breathe, the way you didn’t like to snuggle when we got you but eventually learned to love, your doggy bag and how you loved it so much, how you hated dogs but you loved people, your dumb dumb ways, how you always couldn’t wait to get in the car, that time I shaved you like a lion and how you wouldn’t come out from under the bed for days, the way you would hide in my shoe closet and 5 1/2 years of you being the best dog anyone could ask for.

I love you, barbie girl, barbie dog, bebe bawbee, our little princess. I wish you didn’t leave me too soon. 😦



it was 11:11 and I suddenly had the urge to ask the universe for one last favor- that you wouldn’t stop loving me… again.

Weird what we wish for sometimes.

Weird-er what our greatest fears are.


It’s god knows what time and I’m waking you up in this sudden need of quenching.

“Give me water! Give me water! UHAW KAAYO KO!”And then I fall right back to sleep.

But there you are, thinking it’s the most important thing in world and there I am, lying almost lifeless, back in my slumber and there you are again, trying to get me to drink water.

It’s early in the morning and we’re laughing about it in the loo. We’re silly creatures, we don’t remember things but we’ll always remember laughing at the dumb stuff.

We’re at a club rn and I wanna crawl into bed with you again.

I used to fear the evenings and falling asleep because i might never wake up but now the nights are my favorite simply because they are always spent next to you.

Never wake me up for water, ok? Only I’m allowed to do that. 😂

It’s Slow and Beautiful Chaos

3 workshops (and hopefully counting…) in a span of a month, my presentations have gone awol on me so I am left to start from scratch, I haven’t answered my emails in 3 days and it’s making me very anxious as I hate having unread and unanswered mail, events for the next 3 days, meetings with clients, a delivery (!!) a flight to cdo for the labor day weekend and a wedding, NO ITINERARY YET (THIS IS MAKING ME ANXIOUS. I NEED TO KNOW!!), looking forward to meeting a few content creators while I’m there and a suitcase that I still need to pack and clothes I still have to buy.

Despite all this chaos, I am taking the time to write to you, to come back to you- my favorite place on earth. Honestly, if it weren’t for you, I don’t think I would be here right now. I don’t think my life would be this beautifully, amazingly chaotic if not for you.

I am grateful more and more each day.

Thank you.

April Fools = My Life



My biggest success in life is being able to FINALLY, FINALLY cook a perfect sunny side up egg. IT’S A RIGHT OF PASSAGE FOR ANY 26 YEAR OLD, COME ONNN! And today, TODAY was going to be the day that I FINALLY would do it… and I did… except nobody told me that: egg from pan -> plate = A WHOLE NEW SKILL SET THAT I DID KNOW ABOUT. So here you go, universe, here’s my “perfect” sunny side up egg… if you look closely, you will see it. </3

Things I “need” right now:

  • make up
  • clothes
  • clothes for a wedding
  • shoes
  • everything in my check out bag on Zalora
  • everything on my HEARTS list on Zalora
  • a fridge
  • a microphone
  • lights
  • a bed. i’m so tired.


5 years ago, you told me you loved me for the first time and it’s gotten sweeter each and every day you’ve said it to me after that.

Today is the first valentines dinner at our new place..


While You Are Sleeping

Do not love me because I wish to be loved

Because I am perpetually obsessed with the thought of someone thinking of me as the sun and the stars in their sky or the earth that they walk on

Do not love me because I smother you with questions of “do you love me?” “do you love me?”

Because sometimes actions are not enough even when they are a hundredfold and I just need to hear it

Do not love me because I love you

Because everything you do and every thought I have has always been and will always be about you

But please love me because it is what your heart wants you to do. Though my egocentric, in constant need of validation, suffocating, crazy, tireless ways may wear you out- even when on the outside I try to act cool but on the inside I’m actually crying at how much I really love you, I hope you can and that you do love me not because I need you to but because you just do.


Thank you for letting me play Uncharted. And for selling the thought of a Nintendo Switch to me. I don’t know if it’s more for me or for you sometimes but what the heck, I want one! lol.

p.s. You are beautiful. I love you.